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Monday, July 17, 2006

No One Likes a Quitter

I quit smoking again. Cold turkey. It's been 36 hours or so since my last smoke. I made a list of 21 reasons I should quit. They are all good reasons but I'm still niccing out here.

These are my 21 Good Reasons Not to Smoke:

1)Even though we smoke outside, it's bad for my daughter (because I'm breastfeeding) and while she doesn't have a choice, I do-I chose my daughter
2)I don't want my daughter to grow up without a mother because I was too stupid to quit and got cancer
3)My throat hurts every morning-like I'm getting sick
4)I don't want to be a bad example to my daughter
5)I smell like smoke and it's totally gross
6)None of my friends smoke anymore
7)You can't smoke anywhere in public anyway
8)It's dirty and bad for the environment (butts everywhere)
9)It makes me feel guilty all the time
10)It makes me feel weak, like I can't control myself
11)Sometimes I have pain my chest, like my heart or lungs are getting sick
12)I get mad when I can't smoke, or haven't had one and I want one
13)I don't want to be responsible for my own death
14)I'm a bad influence on my mom and my other friends
15)It's too expensive to waste money on cigerettes
16)I could use that money for better things for my family
17)I'm always short of breath, I gasp just going up the stairs
18)It's pretty dumb to freeze my ass off in the winter time, just so I can smoke
19)I feel like I'm disappointing so many people when I smoke
20)I'm tired of lying to my in-laws, it's wrong and I feel bad doing it
21)It's just a pathetic crutch to use when I'm stressed out, instead of dealing with my problems

Pretty good eh? I'll feel pretty stupid starting up again after that list!


Bob Souvorin said...

OK, just so you know, I am not Anya, I did not lock my keys in the car, and I have read your blog.
By the way, you write pretty well - have you given any thought to writing as a means of expressing yourself as opposed to "chattering between naps?'
I don't mean that as a put-down in any way, but your piece about your brother's call (s) and your subsequent e-mail has some real possibilities as a short play.
In drama, you introduce characters, allow them to develop personal attributes and personalities (not by description, but by their actions and interaction actions, if possible) and them confront one or both with some aspect of tension or conflict which they need to resolve. For the most part, ineffective or misguided conflict resolution usually works better for drama than wonderful or clever strategies.

You do not tell the truth, you present alternate reality, and if done effectively, you do it in such a way that the reader feels he/she is part of the unfolding journey.
I don't know why I am suddenly telling you all of this - there was just something in the way you write that appealed to the artist/writer in me. If you are interested in following this up, I would enjoy reading further posts. If you want some more feedback, you can reach me by e-mail through my blog: or by commenting in your blog to my comment, and I will respond as well as I can.
Good luck! Bob

Anya_5 said...

You can do it Megan.